Such strange and new feelings are constantly running through my brain, much, these days. Another massive change to and in my life in Tina not wanting to be with me.
Now I question everything about myself and wonder how I might be upsetting people or if I will find someone else in the future. Currently I do see myself with another person for some time.
My self-esteem has gone down to the lowest point it has ever been at.
Right now I am in Solana Beach, CA with Daniel Powell, as you might remember, we had graduated high school together. He has done amazingly well in real estate and business. He looks to be quite the millionaire, living the life that he wants–good for him.
I wrote of our differences in my last words to you, Daniel is living the charmed life, as I am living the broken life?
Or, is this just how I have directed my life?
If it is, of course, I feel like an idiot.
I’ve been wondering if my words in these writings are making a difference in people’s lives, or am I just wasting my time. As you know, I do want to add to the world and make this a better place for everyone.
Being lonely now-a-days, I would love to hear from you. Simply reply to this email with the word, “yes” (or, “no”) to let me know that what I write is making a difference in your life (and, if you would, please let me know some of your current life situation.)
Wondering how many people I might hear back from . . .
I fly back to Philadelphia on Oct 2, then no idea what I will do. I am thinking that I might just continue on the same path that Tina and I were forging, to keep driving to Key West with many stops in between, then on to the west.
What do you think I should do?
I will basically be a lonely homeless vagabond in the world writing about life and trying to help others to lead a better life with what I have learned.
Let me know>>>>>>>>>>>>Kit