BLOG 47—Back Home to San Diego

The Wanderings of Kit (Do you wander or just wonder?)
With my words, I hope to throw some oblique light upon your soul.
By writing this blog I want to inspire you and show you that–
YES—YOU CAN > >
• Change your life at any time to make it more magnificent!
• Live with little money and still have an excellent life.
• Be able to live life getting very little sleep.
• Live ANYWHERE in the world and still make your life a fantastic event!
• See experiences that will add to and make your life better.
• I want to inspire you as to the wonders of the earth.
• Perhaps this is my new “gig”, traveling the world doing the same?
• And, I’m not just, “Kitting Around”.
Design the life YOU want to live, NOW, then live that life.
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***The freedom I am experiencing in my travels is a marvelous thing.
***Going where I want, when I want and seeing wonderful places and people.
***I will have places to show you and tales to tell.
***I will have secrets to unfold and good news!
I’m glad to take you on my journeys with me!
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As you might know, I grew up in San Diego and it is always home to me. I decided to come here to spend Christmas, although I don’t know where. Perhaps it will be chicken tacos in the van like I did a few years ago.
 
But, it is back to a big city for me? With Christmas coming up I have no plans, hoping something might materialize for me in SD.
 
Solitude—For me, isolation is when I find myself (not that I misplaced me.) All by my lonesome out in the wilderness seeing the world as it is. Often I cannot let anyone else in (except you, of course.) I find that I (we) need to depend on ourselves. Maybe that is why I have had trouble in relationships?
I’ve also heard that truly creative people over time are often loners. That creative people often fail to make mature personal relationships work because that is something they trouble focusing on. Staying in isolation, by choice. Is that me? “hmm”.
 
Of course, this brings my mind back to Tina. In a recent communication with her, I let her know that I was questioning if I even wanted to be alive. She did not respond, at all, did not care? I thought we once had something big, I guess it is all forgotten and thrown away by her now.
 
Then I sent a Facebook message saying, “I am so happy you and Bob are working well together, Tina.”After I sent that she abruptly blocked me. So, I now have no way to even get word to her or find out how she is. How did our strong love turn so quickly to strong hate on her end?
 
A strong friendship/love was generated between us, it seems now it is all just thrown away. That’s enough about that segment of my life, time for me to move on and away from memories like that.
 
And, away from relationships, remember, I “chose” to be in the wilderness rather be in the discontent of being in ANY city. Cities are so jumbled and can be so hard. And, most of the time, they all have the same stores and the same look.
 
Give me trees and a trail to a paved road any day. The massive scale of the beauty of the wilderness is overwhelming. From peak to peak, from river to river, from lake to lake, keep me in that environment and I am happier.
I know that I could never again fit in with the humdrum life of living in any city. Having lived in cities most of my life, I like a forest much better—birds in the trees, pine needles overhead, critters on the ground.
 
It seems to me that most all cities are the same, with the same stores and all. I like to get out and really taste life and all that it has to offer.
 
People like the trustworthiness of having—“a job”—in a city, but is that real life?
 
For me, an open road lures me at all times. I have been thinking more and more I will be a lone wanderer going from wilderness to wilderness for the rest of my living days. Will you stay with me through this blog?
 
I was never satisfied with the life that so many people choose. I desire to live with more intensity and variety out in the woods or by an ocean.
 
In fact, I would love to die in the wilderness. To be in a grave or be burnt up makes no sense to me. A grave just takes up space of the earth, and cremation is a waste of your energies. I want to die in a remote wilderness area so, that way, all the animals and bugs can feast on my carcass as I nourish them.
 
With all my writing of wanting to be alone in the wilderness, I also want to have a purpose in life. I hope this blog does just that. If you know me, you know that I have never believed in any God. I think that when you die—that’s it—finito. Many people seem to have a hard time realizing this.
 
But, until that time, I want to find as much joy in life as I can, as I try and bring as much joy to others as possible. I think this is a way that everyone should live their life.
 
As you know, I have been traveling. Recently I found videos of this guy who is riding his unicycle across the US. As you know, I ride a one-wheel, this is much, though.
 
Yesterday I stopped to see my friend, “Sabel Aguilar. I have always been impressed with his work ethic. He started and built a magnificent company – Kings Printing – even being able to keep things going through and with self-printing.
 
If you are in need of printing of any kind, go to Sable, he will do you very well.
 
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Words to inspire you!
1) Start by doing what’s necessary; then do what’s possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible…
2) Change your thoughts and you change your world…
3) I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination…
4) The best preparation for tomorrow is doing your best today…
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MY DAILY JOTTINGS >>
 
12/15—Trouble with the van. The check engine light came on and I know that Autozone will check it for free and let you know. At about the same time my radio stopped working. Now I was getting scared.
 
I went to two different Autozones to have them check it, their reader did not show a thing. And, the tried with four different readers at each. Yikes, I even became more scared. The van drove alright, though.
Another problem that has been persistent for about a year, sometimes when I turn the key to start the van, it seems to go into a mode where it does not run right. In this mode, the radio and turn signals do not work and the electric system seems a mess.
 
I don’t know if these two are connected, but I am scared of seeing high van repair costs and/or the van will no longer run. If I have no van, I have no home. Hard to get this though through my head to look for alternatives.
 
Beyond shame, I shed tears and went through a multitude of self-pity at my predicament.
 
Right now I am at, LOWs in Slab City, you can have mail delivered. I had ordered 22 copies of my book, “Accident”, and they arrived. I got the box when we were all together in the main room. I handed out a copy to each of the seven people there to take a look and to read the back cover.
 
As some read the words on the back cover, they sort of laughed and said, “How can you tell people how to live when you live like you do?” And, “Why are you not finding the success that I write about in the book?” And, they have a right to question and to laugh.
 
How can I inspire people to change and find a better life when I live the sad life that I am? The books I wrote are packed full of ideas to advance, why am I not?
 
Who am I trying to fool?
Or, am I the fool?
 
I just heard an ice cream truck? Yes, it was, way out here in the slabs. Actually, he had many takers and sold a good amount of ice cream (for a very high price.)
Last night I tried to teach five of the guys how to juggle with scarves. They really had no interest or desire in learning the skill. It made me sad that they would not even try. Personally, I love learning new things.
 
And, I drove the van up onto the slab (the cement is flat and clean), took everything out, and cleaned and organized the inside. I like to do this every week or two. Yes, it is much better now.
And, this morning I cleaned myself. Set up the shower early to get warm from the sun, I feel like a new man being very clean. Also, I used my charger and trimmer and gave myself a haircut. Feels nice.
 
Then, to end the day, I built a big fire out by my van, all by my lonesome, I enjoyed that.
 
12/16—I’ve heard that Slab-LOWs closes down in the summer—it just gets too darn hot. Some of the guys told me of locations up north that they travel to in the summer.
 
Today a very cold wind is blowing hard, keeping me inside while working on this.
 
Also, during the day most people don’t show their faces. Many of them have motor-homes and stay in to watch TV or get on the internet. Because I do not have a TV and cannot connect to the internet here, I have been getting quite bored.
 
Because of nothing happening during the day, I am thinking of heading out today toward the San Diego area. I still have nowhere to be for Christmas, I guess I will just be alone.
 
One good thing, I had purchased a flint and steel to start my fires. So, no more cost for matches or lighters or fuel. It works great, using the fire starter pads to then start the wood.
 
I do want to let you know, every day I am lifting weights and riding my bike, so, getting some exercise. I also brush my teeth every night before sleep.
 
Yesterday I worked for a time on my juggling, which, surprisingly, is improving. I had a problem with my left-hand throws—getting over that now—makes me happy. I do not see that I will ever be a performing juggler again (maybe part of my inspirational speaking?), but, personally, it feels like an accomplishment.
Did you ever see my show from the 1980s?
 
There is a certain “flow” when you do good juggling. Up until now I never could find that flow I once had with my hands (really, my brain.) Lately, I have been experiencing this flow (sort of), as my juggling is getting better.
 
So, right now I am in quite a bind. Should I stay here in the safety and security of being with the LOWs group, or should I venture out to find somewhere to get the van repaired and running right again? Hard to go forward without knowing anyone out there, but, that is the life I choose.
 
Along with the van trouble, I thought I had lost my glasses. I looked everywhere, for at least an hour. Turns out they were in my jacket pocket after all. The bad words I said to/at myself were not nice.
 
About the van, I found a small repair place (very busy) and David said to return at 1pm. He put the van electrical system on a scanner, found the bad fuse, and fixed it. He also reset the check engine light. After doing this, and mainly he relieved my fears, he only charged me five bucks. (I was expecting it would be hundreds of dollars to fix.)
 
So, I am happy once again in the van, and feeling very relieved. I even had thoughts that the van was kaput. I remember I just wrote recently I needed to have better control and negative thoughts that come up, I learn again.
 
12/17—Lynn Montague and I went to high school together. She lives in a town called, “Boulevard”, about seventy-five miles east of San Diego in the high desert. I stopped to see last time I was passing by, I stopped by this time, too.
 
About thirty years ago she got tired of living in the city of San Diego and decided to move out here. Lynn now lives in the wilderness, about a football field away from Mexico, you can see the “border fence” from her home.
 
In the past, she has had some illegals passing by going into the US. Border patrol did not seem to do anything, at the time, to keep this in check. She does keep a gun by the door to her fifth-wheel trailer she lives in.
 
In the afternoon Lynn made some Peppermint Schnapps with Mexican chocolate. The taste is quite good. I believe I will have another.
 
12/18—Today we went to some stores and did laundry. Lynn has no car and counts on others for help to get her places. This seems to be working well for her, that’s a good thing. Today I was happy to be her driver (I did my laundry, too.)
 
Thank you, Lynn, for letting me stay over.
 
When we got back I put up some small shelves for her, and, because she is scared of heights, I got up on her roof and fixed/tied down some wires that made noise when they blew in wind.
 
After that, off I went to visit my home city.
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My Challenge for You this Week >> Spring will be here soon. Time to plant your vegetable garden. Home-grown vegetables and fruits taste soooo much better.
 
As I have written before, I think the “common” thing of having “grass” is such a waste of space. We could feed the world if everyone grew fruits and vegetables instead of grass.
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Next Blog >> Learn of my Christmas doings, as I learn of yours. (And, by the way, MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2 Comments

  1. stephen j margil December 21, 2019 Reply

    Kit…why don’t you spend time with your daughters…..and can’t they help you financially at times of need?

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      Kit December 23, 2019 Reply

      Thanks for your words, Bounce. Right now I am in San Diego and they are in PA. A long ways to go, can’t right now.

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